A hectic 2016

Exhausted

Tired

Just wanna walk away

Far,far away...

My life is like a turning pages

Written by others

Who have high expectation

For the next pages

Stress,depress

I might gone crazy in second

No more excitement

No more happiness

No more my own dreams

Only their dreams

I wanna stop

Doing thing for people

I wanna do something

For myself..

I wanna walk away

And never return

My darling

Rasa rindu,berdebar-debar,nervous

Rasa sakit hati,marah,menyampah

Tiba-tiba rasa nak nanges,

Tiba-tiba kecut perut macam nak amik exam

Tapi semua rasa tu kena tahan,kena simpan,kena sorok..

Firstly excited..

High expectation..

Then built courage..

Even smile at myself,

Like a fool..

So happy about you..

And....as usual,

That moment come again.

I felt so sad,

So down..

All the courage flew away..

No more smile on my face,

Like a fool I'm crying..

And....as usual,

I decided to put you aside...forever......again..

I do know,

U always like that.

Somehow, I do think,

I am the one who should be blamed.

I easily get excited just because,

You talked to me.

I got happy just because,

You called me.

I even think it's such a bless just because,

You remembered me.

Need to get rid of this feeling.

It's killing me badly,

It's hurt!

If and only if I had a delete button for the memories,

I will definitely delete everything bout you my darling..

15/10/14