Appreciate

Is it the boys just know how to appreciate

Or actually the girls who can easily feel the appreciation?

So,is that means,

Hard for the girls to appreciate

And hard for the boys to feel the appreciation?

Ok,lets translate..

Adakah lelaki memang tahu bagaimana nak menghargai

Atau sebenarnya perempuan yang senang rasa dihargai?

Jadi, adakah bermaksud,

Perempuan susah untuk menghargai

Dan lelaki susah untuk rasa dihargai?

Boleh nampak tak kaitan kat situ?

Ke tak ade?

hoho..

OMG!!!

OMG!!!

Lets pretend

That someone didn't realize

Anything I mention about

Chipsmore

Lets pretend

That someone not there when

I tweeted about it

Lets pretend

That someone didn't get

The message behind each

Chipsmore that I've mention

Arghhhh..

How could I???

It's so embarassing.........

Snowwwww..=O

14th January 2013


In a week, the snow keep falling..
And it's predicted to keep on snowing until next week n who knows maybe for few more weeks..


                                                         The temperature..predicted to reach -10 degree..
Don't know how cold it will be..last time, the lowest temperature is..ermmm..-3 degree..maybe..
Not so sure anymore because last winter, no snow at all..the only snow was on February (early spring..)

21st January 2013

23rd January 2013

Aku dan Diriku

Berjalan di tanah gersang

melihat kiri dan kanan

kosong dan kosong

Berjalan di dalam hutan

melihat kiri dan kanan

Semak dan samun

Berjalan terus berjalan

Perjalanan terhenti

di persimpangan

Antara dua jalan

Ke tanah gersang

Atau ke hutan?

Aku dan diriku

Terpaku, terpana

Berhenti lama

Berfikir dan meneroka

Tapi jasad masih

tidak berganjak

Masih di situ

Menanti buah fikiran

Gugur dari pohon langit

Aku tanyakan pada diriku

Diriku juga tanya pada aku

Kening diangkat tanda tidak tahu

Akhirnya

Ke mana aku dan diriku lalui?

Tercuit Hati

Bangsaku

memang cepat melatah

Tercuit bahu kanan

Bahu kiri terasa sama

Melatah sepanjang hari

Hingga ada yang termimpi

Esok mentari tiba memancar

Mata terpejam menahan sinar

Silau pandangan

Digosok perlahan

Eh, aku masih di takuk sama

Bukankah semalam aku kembara menjelajah?

Melangkah kaki di bumi sendiri

Terasa asing

Dek fantasi semalam

Benarkah kau berfikir sebelum bermimpi

Benarkah kau ferfikir sebelum berfantasi

Benarkah kau berfikir sebelum melatah

Benarkah arah fikiranmu tidak songsang?

Tiada manusia yang benar dan salah

Melainkan Hakim Agung penentunya

Jangan digosok mata terlalu kuat

Takut buta haru jadinya

Harapan

Seputih salju itu 

Menutupi bumi 

Kelembutan palsu

Tapi tetap ditunggu

Seorang puteri salju

Menanti dalam syahdu

Bersama hati yang beku

Seorang hamba salju

Mengharap pada yang satu

Bersama hati yang sayu

Akankah salju terus bersama

Atau pergi sebaik mentari tiba?

Salju telah lama hadir

Semalam dan kelmarin

Cuma hati hanya yakin

Apabila warna putihnya terlihat

Memenuhi ruang pandangan

Sang puteri terus menanti

Sang hamba terus berharap

Salju pula terus patuh

Bukan pada penantian sang puteri

Bukan pada harapan sang hamba

Tapi keizinan dari Dia..

Diri Sendiri

Perasaan yang pelik ini

Selalu menjengah

Bersama degupan jantung

Kencang mendebarkan

Diri pasti

Kalau ada yang melihat

Perubahan di wajah pasti dikesan

Tapi di sini

Hanya ada diri dan Tuhan

Diri benar-benar merasakan

Beban berperasaan

Namun Tuhan jauh lebih tahu

Apa yang diri rasakan

Diri percaya

Seseorang pasti akan dapat rasa

Rasa yang sama

Jika Tuhan mengizinkan

Walau tiada bicara antara kita

Walau tiada kisah dikongsi bersama

Rasa ini

Biarlah hanya Tuhan yang tahu

Siapa pemiliknya

Pity me

Ignorance

can be a bliss

Ignorance

avoid you from real world

Ignorance

keep your heart safe

Ignorance

give you space to think

For me

I always ignore myself

I haven't got my dinner yet

Ignore the feeling

I haven't study that much yet

Ignore the lecture notes

I haven't sleep yet

Ignore the tiredness of the body

I haven't do my best yet

I give up easily

For friends

They escape class

I feel bad

They hang out until late at night

I'm not a good friend

They start to smoke

I feel sad

They give up on their life

I feel down and try to find reasons

why they should keep moving 

They break up

I told them to fight

Me

The unfair

The mean

The ignorance

The bad friend to myself

Pity me

To have me

As me..

We Never Know

Aku tak bisa

Menidakkan rasa cinta 

Meski ku tak bisa 

Melupakan salahmu 

Resah hatiku..

Maafkan diriku..

Melukakan mu..

Cinta jangan engkau pergi,

Jauh dari diriku lagi..

Sesungguhnya cinta kita 

Setia ke hujung nyawa..

We never know, for now, whether what we are wishing for is the best for us and others. For now, I just wish, no matter what happen, the feeling remain. No give up, and keep trying. Although deep inside the heart, the bleeding is non-stop. I believe in myself, the best explanation is there at one point of life. I have to keep searching, and try any path given. Hey heart, stay strong and have faith. No matter what, each thing that happened got its own reason. Yes,have reasons. Not to torture, but to teach you a lesson.

Love Stories

The best love story

Is the story written by Him

Not me,not you,not even us

The best love story

Start from the best love story

of our parent

of our grandparent

and great, great grandparent

And above all

By the greatest love

Given by Him

The best love story

Continue with the cry,patience and love

When we are still baby

Don't have feeling

But magically

We'll feel safe
when we are with our parent

The best love story

Continue with the fights with siblings

Yelling at each other

But at the end

We'll still love them much

The best love story

Continue with friends

Sharing hopes and dreams

Talking about something beyond the future

Talking about something that might happen

Or hope to happen

The best love story

Continue with successes

Although we always blaming

Ourselves and others for the path taken

But at last

We really glad with what we've been through

The best love story

Continue with you

Which for now

I don't even know

But I believe

The best love story

Is meant to be continued

To be a best love story 

That ever exist
For each one of us

Exammmmss Fever

Ujian itu datang dan pergi

Ujian dunia datang saat diri 

sepatutnya bersedia

dengan nota dan peta minda

Ujian hidup pula

Datang saat diri

tidak bersedia dengan apa-apa

Tidak pernah disangka

Tidak dapat diagak

Ujian datang dan mengambil sesuatu pergi

Baik daripada aku, dia atau mereka..

Bila ujian dunia dan ujian hidup

berlaku dalam masa yang sama,

Diri ibarat daun kering

yang melayang jatuh ke tanah menanti reput

Hilang segala harapan..

Tanpa sedar bahawa

setiap yang terjadi sudah sedia diatur..

pertanyaan diutarakan sekali lagi

kepada diri ini

Apakah putus asa saja pilihan yang ada???

Pudarnya Satu Nama

Tiada bicara

Tiada kata-kata

Terurai sudah materi janji terbina

Manis madah senyum tawa pesona

Terpadam satu dunia dari lubuk jiwa

Manakah bisa

Mana lautan bara

Kecuncang jua satria panglipurlara

Hanya mimpi mungkin kan tinggal mimpi

Yang pasti aku sendiri

Tetap begini

Rasa cinta ku padamu

Hanya Tuhan yang tahu

Yang ku rindu  hanya satu

Hangat sentuhanmu

Makin kenang detik dulu

Makin membuka ruang-ruang lukaku

Mana janji mana rindu

Tinggal aku

Pudar segala

Pudarnya satu nama

Aku berpaling moga kan berbahagia

Moga Tuhan merestui segala

takkan ku sesal

takkan ku sesal

takkan ku sesal

tiada..... 

Rumeli Hisari-Usaha Menakluk Istanbul

Sekuat semangat Al-Fateh

Begitu yakin dengan janji

Begitu yakin dengan diri

Begitu berusaha

Menjadi yang terbaik

Untuk agama

Adanya Sheikh Shamsuddin di sisi

Mengingatkan tentang yang Maha Kuasa

Bukan tidak pernah rasa mengalah

Bukan tidak pernah rasa lelah

Namun langkah kembali gagah

Bila hati berjuang kerana Allah..

My way to Venice

The train move fast

leaving one station to another

Moving through darkness

With little light

Shining by the road

The people around me

Busying themselves

With phone, or sleep soundly

I try to see through

the window

With pen and notebook

Sometimes

No single light seen

Darker route in the canal

With music in the ears

I'm thinking about you

You left me

But I hardly realized

I keep sitting in my own world

Until that one day

I'm awake

Realizing that you are away from me

I try to go after you

But i just like the station

Where you just pass by without looking

I hope I can stop you

I'm calling for you

But no reply

I try to chase you but felt down

I try to stand up

But I've lost the energy

I lost the spirit

I lost the smile

I lost you

The one that i should

Appreciate the most

I'll never get you back

I just can be a better me

So that i can defend myself

Why I let you go away like that

Ohh TIME..

Please, do forgive me.. 

27/12/12 8.55pm

2012 Review (ii)

January
 Asian Cup 2012

February
 My 22nd Bufday!

Project 8

March

 Turki Aku datang!

All England....

 Chong Wei tarik diri..

Statue in Birmingham

 Smile with Dr. Asri in da house!

 Again with Kembara Sufi

April
 Care4u with TYT Dato' Zakaria Sulong & Wife

Welcome to the world Nuh Haider!

 Enjoying the sun

Election~ 

May
 With Wardina Safiyyah..

 BUZZ - Talking about politics..

September

 Back to Leeds..

 Welcome n Welcomeback people!

October
 Selamat hari Raya!

 Introduction of DG..

 Kad raya from LUMSOC

 Jual kuih raye..

 Lake District..

 November

 Release tension day..

 Sharing is Caring

December

  Lets having some physical activities..

 Hey2..Italy!!

Finishing 2012 with smile

There were too many things that make me cry

There were too many things that make me happy

So,

Nikmat Tuhan yang mana lagi kita nak pertikaikan???

Selamat tinggal 2012 & kenangan

Selamat datang 2013 & sejarah baru

2012 Review

January

Azam tahun lepas adalah

- lupakan, abaikan, stop stalk apa2 pasal dia

- tak nak rapat dengan Bf orang walaupun as kawan

- puasa sunat isnin + khamis + baca buku agama + Al-Quran

- Study at least sejam setiap hari & markah 60++

-Menabung Road to London

4th Jan 2012

The date which I officially declare 

to ignore and should be no more feeling..

January continue with 

each day thinking about that decision..

February

Officially 22..

still hoping that 

everything remain as history..

Trying harder each day to move on..

Cannot accept that 

everything so easy for 'dia' 

but so hard for me..

Project 8

After all the struggle 

and dealing with people..

Without patience, 

you cannot work an art

 Too many poems in this February

really showed what I felt..

March

18th March

Harapan itu,

Umpama kertas surih,

Makin lembut dek air mata yang menitis, 

Makin lama,

Semakin pasti,

Kertas itu rosak,

Kerana tiada usaha,

memperbetul yang sepatutnya,

Daripada mereka,

Yang mampu menjadikannya,

Sesuatu yang seharusnya..

Atau mungkin harapan itu,

Tidak pernah dirasai bersama?

April

Although I think that I'm strong enough,

There come the tears and memories,

And the hurt from those that I love..

I made promise to myself 

not telling anyone about my summer

May

Started to broken the 'azam'

because I aware that I'm not that tough

I always being hurt by someone I love the most,

In order not to loss,

I have to pretend and look OK..

12th May

I miss you,

If only I can say these words to you

I'm sorry cause I love you

You are doing very fine without me

Even better when I'm not there

I don't want to ruin your life

Be happy but remember

I always am your friend

Because you are still by my side yesterday..

June - July - August

Impress!

I didn't write anything

Anywhere...

I'm not ready and not in a mood

to meet anyone including 'dia'

Need to back to real life

Everything move on,

Me, myself move on,

Hopefully..

September

Crying again because of a tweet..

October

Nothing written..

Whether I gave up 

or I'm too tired of 

crying and hoping

But what I knew

I do stalk every single day

And the result is

Crying~

November

Seriously said,

When I told that I wanna call,

I try to avoid..

I don't feel like talking,

But I did call..

That night..

The hope shine again,

You make me smile, again..

My heart feel glad,

But nothing change..

We are still like that..

December

Ever heard

 'curiosity killed a cat'?

Then, 

dengar lagu 

Dejavu by Shahanshah..

After long time,

After all the struggle,

I now got a reason

 to care more

And even 

trying to win back

In order to help

Make things better

...

...

...

..

.

But somehow I feel like

I'm not the right person

To be there and advice you

Because you keep

Hurting me..

It's New Year!

The new number,

The new age,

The new me,

The new hope,

The new mission..

Leeds-Manchester-Rome-Pisa-Florence-Venice-East Midlands-Leeds

23/12/12

From Leeds,

Carrying the bag for about 15 minutes to train station

2.35pm - 2.50pm

Train tickets at 3.40pm..

still thinking about

How, why and what

With heavy heart

Arrived in Manchester

People know Manchester more than Leeds

Just because of football

Flight at 7.10 pm

Leaving all the studies

Leaving all the people

who don't care about me

Reached Rome at 11.00 pm

Taking shuttle straight to the city and hotel

Hungry

We need to hunt for food

We need energy to discover Rome

 26/12/12

From Rome,

we took a train to Florence

But the first destination is

Pisa

27/12/12

After Pisa,

We travel around Florence

The city of art and shopping

28/12/12

Then again,

we took train to Venice

The place where I fall in love

The feeling

The scenery

indescribable..

29/12/12

But we need to move on

I need to left Venice behind

I'll come again next time

With someone

Who have the same feeling

Like what Venice gave me

Adios Italy!

Till we meet again!

A call from Italy

Moving from a comfort zone

Always give a weird feeling

Wanna cry

Wanna hide

If possible

Don't wanna go away from here

A call

Yes, by a call

can give a

comfort feeling

The feeling that

No matter where I go

There is someone

Who able to comfort me

Because that someone

Stay comfortably

Inside this heart

No matter where I go

A call

From that someone

Settle all

Hey you,

Do you want a call

Yes, a call from Italy?

23/12/2012

      

Happy new Year Malaysia!

It's quite late here

Compare to Malaysia

I'm still in 2012

While they already welcoming 2013

No, I'm not sad

No, I'm not down

I just thinking about

The new year

The new hope

The new wishlist

What about last years' wishlist?

Is everything done?

Am I happy with what I wish for?

We can't never predict the future

Sometimes, what we want

We didn't get

What we want to avoid

There it is in front of you

So,do we really need wishlist?

Lets think.............

Maybe I should call them

A hope list

Hope that will never die

Even times fly, even heart numb