Being Forgotten, that hurts more..

The day we first broke up
I didn’t know what goodbye was
Only after a few days have passed
Not getting a call from you felt so awkward
The empty text message inbox, a day without you

Were we ever in love?
The images of you in the many places
At some point are being forgotten
The fact that you’ll be even more forgotten as time goes by
That hurts even more, it just doesn’t feel good

I guess it’s really over now
It finally feels real
Everything that we used to love is now being erased
The times when we were always together
The days I was happy by looking at you

The night I looked for you, asking you to come back
Saying that I missed you
Hiding and crying all night, all of that
And the fact that we’re getting farther apart
That hurts more for me

As I was organizing things one by one
I suddenly thought of this
There were so many things I am sorry for

I wasn’t good enough so I couldn’t express myself
I know you were disappointed with me back then

I guess it’s really over now
It finally feels real
Everything that we used to love is now being erased
The times when we were always together
The days I was happy by looking at you

The night I looked for you, asking you to come back
Saying that I missed you
Hiding and crying all night, all of that
And the fact that we’re getting farther apart
That hurts more for me

On a day when it really hurt a lot
I really missed you
I was so young
I hated you so much

So I hoped you would suffer too
I hoped you would hurt without me too

Your phone number that’s still clearly in my head
The way you talked that always changed
Your body that was so warm
All the things that I miss are being forgotten
That is what hurts